Relaxing Trip

Yuuuuuhoooooooo~! I'm back. =]

Finished my 4 days and 3 nights Genting's trip, started from 26th to 29 April. Going there with my mum and her friend's family. There are totally 12 of us~ Obviously most of the adults will be going there for gambling, while us underage teens definitely will be "abandoned". hahaha met my mum's friend's daughter, son and their cousins. they are all very nice but maybe i'm too quiet and shy so din't join them much. LOL still, nice to meet them all. then, met hui and deh on the second day. woo~! really a coincidence. at first i saw a girl who look like ah deh but can't believe that the two girls are hui and her. we spent our 2nd last day at genting's starbucks, walking around and chit-chat till 2am. now they suppose to be at kl shopping already.

Overall it's a relaxing trip. my confusing mind was gone during the past four days. the weather was around 17 degree celcius and i like it. walking around the whole genting, i found myself no worries. jogging around, chit and chat, release my tense. and i like to fly during night. the view from the plane was amazing. i'm so huge up there and the cars are so tiny. cute!

nice 180 degree view from my hotel room

the lady is so huge and i'm the tiny bowling ball

i'm so close with this uncle

four of us, met coincidently

inside the theme park hotel

remind me of moral project LOL

too bad the monkeys behind din't move haha

high high us, nice to meet u guys there!

hui always want to snap a pic with this caterpillar and me too XD

aboi reach 153cm! =!

hui, u are so tall!

**din't buy lot of things there. so friends sorry if i din't give u any souvenirs.hehe wait i go overseas baru buy u one. XD

If ?

After the previous useless post, think it's time for a meaningful post.. it's not meaningful though, just a more serious and my random expression..

17 of April 2009. It's the day that the matriculation application's result was out. early in the morning, i was waken up by dad and mum, asking me to check my result. i replied them that nothing to be rush, i will check later. but dad couldn't wait as his friend's daughter had been selected. so he asked my bro to check for me. i knew that bro was checking for me that time, i lied on bed, having a confuse mind. i thought that i would get it, but then told myself nothing was sure plus chinese has less chance. few minutes past, nothing happened. dad came in, asked me go and see. the moment i saw the computer screen, i saw something like please berdaftar at 22 may 2009, din't know why my mind had the phrase. i thought my application was successful. but, after seeing it again. it meant the keputusan rayuan will be out at 22 may 2009. my application failed and bro click rayuan for me. cold and speechless. went back to my bed, closed my eyes. still like couldn't accept the truth. my mind was then full of question marks with my future. i will be going to form6, spending two years for stpm then apply for ipta, finally out for working. 2010 or 19 for stpm, 2011 or 20 go into uni, 2014 or 23 working. gosh. i'm already so old like that. if my stpm sucks, i will be studying course that i don't like or end up getting into private uni. really can't think further for it. the worser the further. yesterday went to swinburne for whole day, becoming a fake one-day-college-student. i'd got the thought that why i need to be so persistant, choosing the road that is full of fallen leaves. i can be like my friends, who are already starting their uni life now. i can then no need to waste my time, waiting for all those uncertain things. i can just enroll and go study together with my bro and friends, having lunch together, rushing assignment together, going class together, laugh together, etc. but now it's all too late. i'd chosen the option. now just face it. no more "IF".


good luck. i love you all.

H.O.T

Hot hot hot hot hot..........

The water is so warm even with the heater turning off.

Fly fly fly fly fly............

I wanna fly to the coldest country.

Woooooooooooeeeee

I'm crazy now as it is too hot~!!!!!!!!




Swimming swimming pool, i wish i have a swimming pool at my house.





Choooooooooooook.

Alone By Myself

I am feeling the loneliness.. It's haunting me.. Mum started to work today.. I'll be alone with aunt and grandma at home.. I'm at upstairs and have no one to talk to.. pathetic.. I want to continue my study as soon as possible but none want me.. checked ipta yesterday night. they rejected me too.. everything deals with government are none of the chinese's business.. they are all for malays.. we chinese or non-bumiputera are not important for them. they so hope we can faster extinct from malaysia.. can't blame anyone but me as borned in this country.. 9 days to matriculation, leave no hope..

Waste 20 bucks

Adalah dimaklumkan bahawa permohonan anda tidak berjaya.

PETRONAS ingin mengucapkan Selamat Maju Jaya dalam bidang yang bakal anda ceburi.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Failed.. ya, i really din't expect to be shortlisted.. but of course i appreciate it if i have a chance to go for the educamp.. =(

sorry dad, waste your RM20 to apply for nothing..

Early Countdown

10 days to wait~
wooooooeeeeeee
*im neither nervous nor excited.. maybe need to wait till final countdown 3 days..*
i bet im the only chinese who is so eager to go matriculation.. right right?? lol i know my chance of getting it is not so high though.. chinese bah.. malaysia is always malay first.. everything connects with government is always like this... no offence, at least it's my mindset..


off topic>>
i love my new belonging~ woohooeee~! when i was still a small kid, i always imagined that i'd one.. and now.. i really has it for real!! yeapiiiee~

Bad Bad Bad

Wooooo~Hooooooooooo!

Yeah, it finished and i did badly.. it's true. i kept stammering and coughing gok.. *==!* grrrr.. it's over anyway!


First i thought i would be the only one from kuching high but when i arrived there at about 7.30am i saw lots of highians. the first one i saw is shu yi. i not sure if i'm late but i saw shu yi already ready to enter the "boarding area" where parents were not allowed to go in and we could not go out as well. shu yi and olin were the group one, earliest group. then met jia ling, dorothy, charlene, valerie, terrence and ming hui. dad was accompanying me and jia ling's mum too. we sat together and the parents chatted. then shu yi them came out, and got some info from her, she was having about canning issue and it was ready for the group 2 too.

i was in group 2, with jia ling in the same panel 2 while terrence, ming hui and charlene in panel 1. we were led by the secretary to the lift, going to level 1, walked to a room, found a seat and sat down. we sat according to panel. there was 3 girls and 2 boys in my panel. all of us are chinese except one boy. i was number 4. so no.1 is a bumiputera boy from bintulu but studied in smk sains(mechanical engineering), no.2 is a girl from lodge(civil engineering & specialise in environment), no.3 is a boy from batu lintang(biotechnology) and no.5 is jia ling(science). another secretary came in and taught us how to arrange the our photostated certs and ic. she also asked about who was now studying a-level or foundation in private university or college. after arranging all our certs, she collected all the files and sent them next room. while waiting for calling, we just chatted a little. then after the previous group had finished, yeah it's finally our turn.

the no.1 go into the room then followed by one another. 3 interviewers inside the room, normal discussion room and not so big. 2 females and 1 male. one indian female who looks fierce, one malay female who always smiles at us and one malay male who is nothing for me to comment. *haha* then the malay female who sat on the middle called out my name *shocked and wonder why she called me first* then i raised up my hand and she said,"oh, poh ling no.4. okay." she then continued by confirming all our name and our number.

the first session was introducing ourselve, all of us did in english. the interviewers asked some question when they had some doubts on your introduction.

the second session was giving out points on a topic. my topic was "Sport in Malaysia is not so well recognised. What's your opinion in boosting our country's sport sector?" we need to answer in english the no.3 guy raised up his hand and answered first then the malay female interviewer instructed no.1 then me. don't ask me how i answered it cause i was really blank and blur when giving my answer. of course, i stammered a lot and i bet i was the only person in my group who pause so long. when i pause, the room was totally in silence, all eyes waiting for me to continue. goosh that's how i screwed up.

the same session, but this time we needed to answer in bm. actually they wanted us to do group discussion but due to the time, they just asked us to give out our opinion ourself. the malay male asked the question, "Sektor Pertanian di negara kita jarang disukai oleh generasi muda, apakah langkah anda untuk mengatasinya?" i'm even worst in this session. i was the last one to answer. gooooooooosh again. my points were already used by them. when it's my turn, i told the interviewers that i was going to conclude all the points giving out. guess what, the indian female interviewer laughed at me and said,"ini yang paling mudah ho, rumus saja semua pendapat, tak perlu fikir senang sekali." *execute me* so i repeated some points which were already used and bla bla something.

then the last session, FAQ. i planned to ask when can we know our scholarship results but..... again... grrrr the no.1 boy asked it.. *= =* then the no.3 boy asked something too. we 3 girls din't ask anything. after all, we were free to leave. we all din't give the interviewers a handshake although my dad asked me to do it. i back at about 11 something.


overall i really did badly la.. could not answer spontaneously, er-er-er like that macam mana boleh dapat. ={ and i was shivering inside the interview room, jia ling saw it and i think the interviewers also. baaaad impression. ahhhhhhhh
*thanks my dad for waiting me at the lobby until i ended my interview. kamsiah~
*din't take a photo on me with baju kurung as no one had the mood. LOL

another countdown..
14 days (322 hours : 53 minutes : 07 seconds)

顺其自然

It's tomorrow~!
No more countdown..
Gonna write a memorable page of my life. Yeah, new experience. Everything not done before. Great to have this chance to open my eyes, discover new things and meet new people.
Wow.. Confused mind, can't describe any of my emotion or feel now. LOL


Yep, I'm gonna say the phrase again.. 顺其自然~
I remembered 6 years back, when i was having my UPSR examination, my mum din't go back home but waited me at the canteen till i'd finished my exam.. then some reporters came to the school and interviewed my mum and her other friends who were also waiting for their baby son or girl to finish their exam. when the reporter asked my mum what did she expect for her daughter's (that's me =p) results, my mum just answered 顺其自然~ and finally the next year when my results were out, 6a! yaya, i know it's not straight but my mum and i were sastified already. after getting results and back home, my mum said it's her "顺其自然" to bring me lucks and get this good results. hahahaha~

So, mum! hope the "顺其自然" this time can also bring me lucks ya..



Yeah yeah.. i'm now more more nervous than the day when i'm getting results 3 weeks ago..