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Ingredients to be Happy!

2010-08-12T21:51:00.003+08:00

Be happy
Show up
Follow your heart
Find a new perspective
Have a sense of wonder
Find people you love
Set goals
Help others
Dance
Pamper yourself
Face your fears
Go to a museum
Exercise
Limit television / internet
Get in touch with nature
Lighten up
Get a good night's sleep
Read books
Buy yourself flowers
Don't compare yourself with others
Don't beat yourself up
Be open to new ideas
Don't focus on negative thoughts
Focus on creating what you desire
Make time just to have fun
Keep romance in your life
Make a gratitude list
Love your mother earth
Want what you have
Be true to yourself

I just want to have a happy and carefree life. =)

等于挂号

2010-08-11T06:33:00.000+08:00

醒了吗？

够了。期待早已在出生时被剪断了。

等待是犯贱才会做的事。

有。我真的有告诉自己我会一直坚持下去。

我不要再被距离打败。

不是有句话说只要有心，铁柱磨成针？

我未免也太看得起自己了吧。

我是啥？我什么也不是。

别再看别去想别去期待别一直痴痴的等

命运到底是已经注定还是要自己掌握？

注定就注定吧。

注定让我在最后一刻认识你。呵呵，时间在开完笑。

掌握。那就让我当个小丑，哭时你也会觉得我在搞笑。

表再想了，伤身伤神。

被伤害了过了，不就不相信真爱了吗？

或许你我都是。

15March2011.8:50am.wokeupwithaheartfullofanticipationalligotisnothingbutonlydisappointmentidontblameyouwhoamitodosogoodlucktoday

Grin

2010-01-29T22:13:00.005+08:00

Ping Ping Pang~ Ping Ping Pang~ Ping Ping Pang Pang Pang~
"Cai Sheng Ye" is coming to town~~~
hahahahahaha

Chinese New Year is around the corner~~
Will be going back to lovely hometown in another 2 weeks time..~
Before that must go through chem quiz, acc quiz, eco test and eco presentation. ~.~

thoughts at this moment~~:
---WoOOOOhhOOOO~! i wanna watch woohoo!
---i wanna play badminton at court!
---being strong is from experiences....
---hope that EVERYONE will be alright and safe everyday...
---errrrr, why am i updating my blog now?

huhuhuhuhuhu chok~

问世间 =p

2009-12-17T13:23:00.002+08:00

爱不是那么简单
不是你说我爱你就可拥有
两情相悦更是可遇不可求

你很开心因为某某人喜欢上了你
但这又如何当你并不喜欢他/她

他/她告白了
你会接受吗
难道知道自己对他/她没感觉也点头吗

曾经的我就是这么天真
以为时间可以成为我们的月老
但这月老却让我学会放手
老套的说一句勉强没有幸福

喜欢上一个人容易吗
走在街上与一个帅哥擦肩而过觉得他好帅
这算是喜欢他对他一见钟情吗
可能过了一个星期你早已忘了他的脸孔

真正的喜欢会让你的作息为他/她公转
你会想尽一切办法去接近他/她
但往往因为缺乏勇气
这份喜欢被埋在心里变成了暗恋

不过当你冲满勇气准备好一切
想对她告白
抓住她的手 “我有事要跟你说”
这时的她不是冲满期待而是想赶快逃离
接下来的一切除了尴尬还是无尽的尴尬
女孩不停的说对不起我不想再听下去
男孩坚强地挤出一点笑容说没关系的
还是朋友吧男孩以这一句结束了尴尬的氛围

如果你的身边有个男/女朋友
问问自己喜欢他/她吗
别耽误了彼此
分手后也别再留恋了
既然她都不要你了天涯何处无芳草
Man一点行不行

base on real experiences,
master piece of being emo yesterday night. lol.
blame for the sad song.
made me think too much and so perasaan.><

期待

2009-12-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

牛奶@咖啡 - 习惯了寂寞

一天天重复的生活
一天一天忙碌着
熟悉的陌生的
都会擦肩而过

一天天寻寻觅觅着
一天一天等待着
属于我属于我
很简单的快乐

该不该那么执着
这一份爱怎样才能寄托

习惯了这样的寂寞
习惯了这样的生活
我期待一个人能够保护我
我期待一个人能和我分享快乐
属于我们的寂寞的快乐

一天天重复的生活
一天一天忙碌着
熟悉的陌生的
都会擦肩而过
一天天寻寻觅觅着
一天一天等待着
属于我属于我
很简单的快乐

该不该那么执着
这一份爱怎样才能寄托

习惯了这样的寂寞
习惯了这样的生活
我期待一个人能听我诉说
我期待一个人能给我一个承诺
让孤单的心不会再寂寞

习惯了这样的寂寞
习惯了这样的生活
我期待一个人能够保护我
我期待一个人能和我分享快乐
属于我们的寂寞的快乐

一张张陌生的面孔
有谁能够为我停留
我想感受另一个人的温度
看一看四面的天空
星星的话我听不懂
只有我的影子
一直陪着我

习惯了这样的寂寞
习惯了这样的生活
我期待一个人能听我诉说
我期待一个人能给我一个承诺
让孤单的心不会再寂寞
让孤单的心
不会再寂寞

贴切的歌词，很有FU的声音。
一直期待着，但也习惯了寂寞。
心累了，淡了。
18岁了，长大吧。
别再不切实际。

Love Me and You All!

2009-12-10T22:36:00.001+08:00

Happy 18th birthday to myself! It's a simple yet memorable birthday. Thanks for all the birthday wishes! =)

Hiiie

2009-11-30T17:38:00.002+08:00

Weee~ just drop by to say nothing special about my holidays~ haha

*beside become tanner and tanner ><

Happy Holiday!

2009-11-08T14:26:00.002+08:00

Enjoy. =)

Stranger's love ~~for me~~ in Deli Cafe.

Sick Bird

2009-11-01T16:29:00.004+08:00

I'm totally beaten by the flu... Running nose and blocking nose. So hard to breathe man! I can't study... I feel tired... I feel dizzy... I wanna sleep.... I wanna recover! Hate it cause it's ending of exam period and coming of holiday!!!! I'm so pathetic......

And ya, the camera button of my hp has some problem.
That means I can't take picture with it,
at this moment(maybe).

Study In Peace

2009-10-30T22:53:00.001+08:00

Will be murdered for 3 days. Wait for me, I'll be alive after 2 November 2009.

Masterpiece?

2009-10-30T18:37:00.004+08:00

My drawings. LOL they were drawn when my mind had flied away while studying. hahaha I know I know, not so good and definitely cannot be compared to anyone's. Yea, just drew for fun. =)

Cacat drawings! Don't laugh at me ah. Sharing is caring mah, so share with you mah~~~unofficial readers!

p/s: see i so love KHS, still using its foot scape paper. hoho

I don't mind at all...?

2009-10-29T14:33:00.002+08:00

I don’t mind it
I don’t mind at all...

It’s like you’re the swing set
And I’m the kid that falls
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion’s there
So it’s got to be right
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t mind it
I still don’t mind at all...

It’s like one of those bad dreams
When you can’t wake up
It’s like you’ve given up
You’ve had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
Because I just know
You’ll come around
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

Just don’t stand there and watch me fall
Because I, because I still don’t mind at all

It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passions there
So it’s got to be right,
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t believe you

Pink.

Momo Cyndi

2009-10-29T14:10:00.005+08:00

It had been a long time since i last chased a taiwan drama. I've often been faded up by the long and dragging storyline. But once again, cyndi wang lights my confidence for taiwan drama. *hearts her*

Momo Love is nice for me. =) I like the song sang by cyndi inside and the romantic scenes. It brings up my loneliness and makes me wanna fall in love. HAHAHAHHA! joking la! sounds hiao aneh. LOL

Just finished episode 2. Looking looking forward! =D

"原来被喜欢的人讨厌，这么痛"
我聊解我体会。
"初恋是最深刻的"
赞同。但前提是
初恋的定义要是，
第一个喜欢的人。
（我还想你=]）

Day and Daysss

2009-10-27T22:42:00.004+08:00

Mpw past. Have totally no idea what am i answering.... M.E.S.S U.P
Gonna see mr.raymond again? T.T

yamcha.. wanna yam real cha with friends when back!!

Tml is the 2nd day! Just the 2nd day!!!

Another 6 days to go!! =.=

Current m.o.o.d

and wanna show off my nail~~ HAHAHA

**苦中作乐？='[
and guess i'm the only one who updates blog during exam time.
lol

Cincai nah

2009-10-27T11:23:00.003+08:00

First paper for my first final semester exam starts at 4pm later. wooohooo. and i'm still online now huh? nah~ get used to it already, as long as i won't feel so stress. =) i don't think i can do well for this final. reasons? too lazy and relax.. often got the thoughts that there is nothing to learn. gosh == how can it be nothing to learn? just i don't know how to study smart. cincai le. don't wanna be frustrated over this final exam. genting is waiting! look for the happier side, pauline! weeeheee. =D

I'm feeling not so well these few days. Starting to have sore throat and heaty body.. mum said it might be the air-con room's fault. as i'd been staying in this small air-con room 24/7 these days, i din't get enough fresh air and exercises. and air-con makes my body so dry, but now i'd put a smail pail of water in my room. air-con! suck the water from the pail, not me yea! =] and i think i should open the window in my room, letting the fresh air to come in. but of course, with the curtain close cause i don't want hamsap guys from block c to peep my room. =p

Oya, if i can meet any fairy or aladdin, i wanna make a wish. I wish that ant can be extinct in this world or at least in my room! *evil look*

Chim-glish

2009-10-26T14:48:00.003+08:00

Wanna share with you all, the Chim-glish.

Chim-glish is a profound english used profusely by professionals professionally, to profess their professionalism.

Instead of saying "That was so funny!", maybe we should try to say, "That was very humorous and it tickled my intellect and senses, causing me to express myself in laughter. Ha ha ha..."

OR

"That was insanely humorous and it triggered a series of trajectories and transcending senses throughout my body and mind, causing myself to display an uncontrollable expression of laughter. Ha ha ha ha.."

Instead of saying, "Please, help me!", "Despite any abhorrence, an invaluable and adjunct aid is desperately appreciated" sounds better?

Instead of replying, "I beg your pardon", try using "My apologies for my lack of reverence, but despite all odds against me, could you do me an exceptional favour and reciprocate the stratospheric message that you just delivered?"

Impressed? haha but i might don't wanna continue my conversation with you if u really reply me using chim-glish. LOL

In conclusion, this post was insanely humorous and it triggered a series of trajectories and transcending senses throughout my body and mind, causing myself to display an uncontrollable expression of laughter. Ha ha ha ha...

Originated from,

Toooot.

2009-10-25T15:54:00.004+08:00

4pm! wasted time again.....

If you ask me what is my hobby...

Can i answer... Wasting my time?!

HA.HA.HA.

Funny?

One thing to grow up is to learn laughing at yourself first.

*i hate.

Remember today

2009-10-24T21:54:00.003+08:00

Finally i'd realised that at the end, family is the best. Family is the one who will always be there for you. Family will be the one who cares about you the most. Family loves you the most.

I'd voiced out my recent feelings to mum just now. Thanks for the comfort and the nagging as well. It was the first time that i cried in the phone call with family. Not because of homesick but stress and pressure.

尽量就好.. But sorry i'd disappointed you all..

But also because of you all, i need to persist and work even harder.

Dreamer,
Remember today.
Today is the day you cried badly here.
Today is the day you had the longest phone call with family.
Today is the day you promised to work hard.
Today is the day you said Mum, I love you.

TIME

2009-10-24T14:35:00.002+08:00

Slept for 13 hours. =) That's mean i'd wasted about 5 hours to sleep instead of studying..

Yea yea, i wanna be a nerd here in college. I can't be relaxing here or else i will lose the track. Sem 1 is ending. Another 2 semesters coming after the 2 months break.

Being a nerd doesn't mean i can be a genius and get good results. I don't know how to study smart. Although i read the notes over and over again, i can't do well. Lose at the starting point i think. Had wasted my half year at home doing nothing. I promised myself that i would never do that again. Never and never again.

Getting As is hard for me. Really, i'm not joking. That also means going to aus is hard for me. Really, again i'm not kidding. I'd seen things too simple and easy. I love lecturers to scold us or me. I wanna wake up as soon as possible and don't wanna fall asleep again.

I really doubt. Does writing a blog post consider as wasting time? How can i full use my time but not being so introvert.

Figure out the answer, by one day? hopefully is soon.

-faded out-

Presentations

2009-10-23T18:05:00.003+08:00

Hohoho~ the real version of the sketch presentation~
and here is individual presentation~

Photos tell~~

Crazy Funny

2009-10-23T17:52:00.003+08:00

We are crazy to prepare for our MPW special sketch presentation!!

*i din't post the video oh. hahahaha

We Love Ourselves

2009-10-23T17:27:00.004+08:00

Love yourself before others love you~ a quote from me. =p

One way to show that you love yourself is......

take pictures in front of the mirror!!!

ahahahaha lame~~

Want more want more?? woo hoo~

Past Events

2009-10-23T16:59:00.003+08:00

duh~ miss A3 hoho

Travel home alone! proud of myself. kakaka

oh presentation again~

big appetite! nearly join it

but luckily nope. =p

Inti International Cultural Night 2009!
wooyeah~ a night that all of us are too shy to talk about again. *blush~
for sure we ~~club~~ enjoy to the fullest XD

Thoughts at the moment

2009-10-23T16:23:00.003+08:00

I wanna make this blog alive again! I wanna keep my memories in this blog! I wanna make this blog the best for me! However at the same time, i wanna keep this blog as low key as possible. Ya, u hear me? low key, meaning that don't tell others about this blog. =p

Emm emm emm, one thing i worry is that college life is not easy man. i might not free to update it constantly. But BUT! why others CAN and i can't? *determined!

And about pictures, another problem.. you see, i'm a poor girl. My poor handphone had been with me for 3 years and that's mean it is almost 4 years old phone. Hard and inconvenience for me to take pictureS. ya, one picture at a time is okay as it features auto focus function (which im very proud of *wink) and it takes time for it to focus.. time consuming... and so my blog might be less pictures.. hope "I" (refer to blog description) don't mind. =D

Next is line problem? emm, ya. impatient to wait for pictures to be uploaded and again time consuming...

Last is the content! yea, must make it good and meaningful. i don't wanna post something like "I'm hungry now" as a post here. definitely at fb yes, but here nono!

Wooooyeah~ Excited for my DreamzzWorld ver.2

Yiiiiihooooo.

Dreamer,

I'm not ready for final exam. Make me ready please. I love you.

说笨衰矮丑

2009-10-23T16:03:00.003+08:00

好久没用华语po文了说~
每次想要在这里写点东东时，都想要说。。。
时间过地好快啊~~~~
眨一眨眼，4个月过了哟。
第一个学期也即将结束卤。。*伤感啊~*
在英迪汝来还不错幸亏有一班志同道合的朋友阿！

离家住宿生活没有比我想象的糟糕
至少我还能活到今天~

大学生不好当
来到这里不得不学多点书不得不勤劳点
但虽如此
并不代表
我能做到
即使能做到又怎样
我天生不聪明。。。

Read this, people.

2009-10-15T02:27:00.003+08:00

Seem that my decision of closing my blog to only author as the only reader was a wrong decision that had lead to many misunderstandings.

First of all, i closed this blog to only me, the author as the only reader. I didn't invite or choose whoever to read my blog.

Secondly, i closed my blog as i didn't have anything to update my blog at this moment. Leaving the blog be abandoned like this and disappointing u all whenever u all come here,hoping for my recent news was not a good idea.

Thirdly, however, if u all prefer to let this blog open like this, deadly, i will suit u all. This blog is reopened again from now.

Lastly, please don't misunderstand me! anything just say out! peace.

='D

2009-09-22T21:37:00.002+08:00

Nothing-Special-Weekend in A3, Inti.

Cruel neighbours all left earlier than me
=p

The only left residentSad sky also pity me ='(
But nevermind! I'm back home safely. =)

All by myself

2009-09-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

Back to Kuching again. =')
I love myself, for able to travel the long way back to hometown all by myself.
All by myself, yea.

ALL BY MYSELF

Let's this post be a little bit emo.

August to September.
I'm lucky and pleased that there is someone there for me.
We din't go through any big disasters or difficulties.
Yea, like what you'd said.
Just like Wind.
Remember we used to chat about weather.
And now it's the "weather" to separate us.
Thanks for whatever you did for me.
I'm really touch when you told me what your dell's password was.
I think you had changed it by now, yea. Must be.
Strange huh?
Peaceful till like there is nothing happen.
Yea, just pretend that there is nothing happen.
Continuing your life, so do i.

1234567890 ---> 130809 ---> fake meteor rain ---> 0909090900 ---> 130909

Short enough.
Can't deny.
I'm a failure.
Can't deny.
Learn from it.
Definitely.

迟了

2009-09-22T21:06:00.003+08:00

一直渴望拥有

直到拥有后才发现

这不是我想要的

慢慢来吗?

但又是谁说

时间不等人

青春的小鸟一去不回

选择了放手

希望你要好好过

.

Darkness

2009-08-16T01:43:00.001+08:00

I'm typing in darkness now.
I'm staring at the computer's screen in totally darkness now.
=.=!!!
the light in my room rosak!
duh why choose weekend to rosak, ao tak open la....
grrrr ahhhhh...
need to spoil my eyes dy if continue for few more days
=x

Getting Married

2009-08-11T16:10:00.005+08:00

Finally, after having an almost 9 years of long run relationship, my brother, Raymond and Sharon are going to get marry! I was so happy just now when i received my brother's sms, saying that they will be going to register for marriage on the 14th of September 2009. He said, actually he wanted to register on 9th of September 2009 (09-09-09) but that day was already fully booked by 25 pairs of couples. wow. But 14-09-09 is also a good and significant date as 一世久久 =').

I was totally surprised when read the sms. I immediately called my brother and asked if he was playing a joke. Fortunately, he is not. => Frankly i was so touched to hear this. =))) My mum and I are always their "bulbs" or "lamp posts" when going out. My bro is really a filial son and a good big brother, can't deny it. He doesn't mind to drive me wherever i want to go and sometimes he even sacrifices his sleeping time just to drive me for tuition. Thanks bro. =D

the couples and two bulbs =p

Sharon (Tze) and I =D

These were taken in year 2005, first trip to Damai with Tze =)cause the water level was too dept so need tze's help XD

Anyway, I really give my greatest wishes for both of them and remember must wait me come back for the wedding dinner and ceremony! I definitely cannot miss it! =>

I gotta feeling

2009-08-10T22:04:00.005+08:00

Finally, it rained. Got a touch feeling when i heard the pouring sound of rain in the class. =') However, it just rained for a while...

rain drops on the window

Looking at the sky "noobly"..it was raining. dark cloud

Looking at the sky, "am chio-ing"

wet floor, kinda rare scenery for meempty bridge during the exam period

"I gotta feeling.
Tonight will be a good good night"
Sweet tonight.
=)

Thought of the day

2009-08-09T23:55:00.003+08:00

Today is the 45th anniversary, suppose to be my first year as an ex-leader to attend but unfortunately i'm not at kuching now. Anyway, how was today's event? I know it must be fun with You all there. Really hope that more photos can be uploaded. =) Glory to KHSRC yea!

It's monday again. The 7th week im here. Works are getting more obviously and can say that im still doing well here. =D

Another 2 weeks time and i will be back to my hometown again.

Hope everything can go smoothly.

Goodnight everyone. =>

You Promised

2009-08-09T02:03:00.002+08:00

You promised me.

Say that you will wait for me.
Hope you din't take your words for granted.
You know that i love you so much.
You know that I'd waited you for so long.
You know that my heart is with you.
You know that it's meaningless to back Kuching without you.

Do you know who you are?

You are KUCHING FESTIVAL 2009!

Here is the prove. =p

From The Star. So happy that i finally read a Kuching's news here

Closer look. I took your promise.

Aug 23. WAIT FOR ME!
=D

A3-20

2009-08-09T01:39:00.004+08:00

Snap pics in my room, actually i do enjoy living by myself. =D

long slim mirror bought by my roomate. really thanks her for buying this, we did need it so much especially having presentation. =]

wet wet hair in the sunday night~

biscuit and a small gift by my malay's friend, Jannah. thanks so much! really surprise to get this =p

Remember this?! wow i miss it so much and always had it when im still a kid. one pack, 5 sticks cost me rm0.70. suppose to be expensive right? =(gift from chingye! shebude to open and eat it~ miss our hang out time!

monkey on my laptop. u are so cute!

ah ah naughty u~~~~

finally, here is the book i written. XDDD
u know im joking =>

Guys! how's kuching festival???? i can smell satay and cha kueh and etc!
but, i always wonder, why there is no kolomee stall in kuching fest??

So formal

2009-08-07T23:07:00.006+08:00

My first presentation and first time wearing formal wear =)

For the "first presentation"
Before going to class~After the class. Sad to say that my group din't manage to present that day cause the first group used up the time. =(

The next week, finally is my group's turn.
wanjun managed to capture this few photos while im presenting.

After the presentation.
In my room, capture some photos as memories bah~

weeee~
ada apa commentss just cakap ya!

I like these

2009-08-07T22:40:00.006+08:00

It's a late update. =) Let's the photos tell~

Fruits Party at the 24th of July 2009 (After coming back from Pasar Malam)
we wonder.... what dragon fruits called in BM??
yeah~

One month anniversary. we had pizza!
i like this the most =)
using mac book's webcam

Although Nilai is really an "ulu" area, but we still manage to enjoy ourselves! =D

One month in INTI-UC

2009-08-07T22:14:00.002+08:00

Guess what? We are using blog to pass up our work there. =D in my english lesson, the lecturer wants us to create a blog and we need to post articles in the blog and she will evaluate our posts and give marks. not a bad idea yea! so i create another blog for my english lesson (Life in Inti-UC).

This is the article i post at there. a short summary of my one month in INTI-UC. =)

Time flies. I'd been away from home and live by myself here in INTI-UC for one month. This is the first time I'd been away from my family for so long. I'm not homesick but just din't realize that i can make it. =) My friends and I had celebrated our one month anniversary at the cafeteria just now and we were having fun with the pizza and camwhoring. Let's recall back my life in INTI-UC here for the previous month.

First week, Orientation week.
I'm divided into group 5, Passion Group! At first, all the group members were not close together but after getting together for few days and going out for supper, "couple-hunting", "illegal campus tour" and outing to Mid Valley, we were getting closer. Although there were some unhappy incidents happened, we learnt to be more careful and solved the problems.

Passion!

Second week, Getting back to family.
My mum and my brother went to visit me on the weekend, so i followed them out to KL. It always felt good with family. =) We went shopping at Bukit Bintang area and Mid Valley. My brother also taught me how to take bus to go airport. Hope next time I will know how to back to Kuching by myself.

Bought from Sungei Plaza!

Third week. Fun week with new friends and getting SICK!
Going to pasar malam for the first time with my seniors. Although it is called pasar malam, we din't manage to shop till night. haha we went there by INTI bus at about 5.30pm and went back to INTI using Airport Liner by 7pm. We had bought a lot of fruits there. The next day, Saturday, my friends and I went for ice-skating at Sunway Pyramid. It was the first time I skate and I really enjoyed it! => Looking forward for the next outing! After coming back from skating, the next day, I got sick and there I spread the bacteria. haha It was getting serious and my friends even suspect that I got infected by H1N1. Touch wood!

Girls' Outing!

Forth week. Getting busy.
Assignments and works are getting more but we still manage to throw a fruit party! =) "A fruit a day keeps a doctor away". hehe

QSs and TP~

Today.
1st of August 2009. The time is 3.32am now and I'm still awake, writing this post. =D Good morning everyone!

More personal feelings will be post in the later post. =D

Meet New and Old

2009-07-20T16:02:00.011+08:00

Holiday!! YaaYa Today is a holiday especially for Negeri Sembilan! hohohooho

Life here is getting okay. Assignments, works and exercises are getting more too. Staying awake on the 4am in the morning is also getting normal for me to finish the reports or works. =/

And guess what......... I've Sore throat! My god.... H1N1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O.O maybe its because of sleep too late and the weather here.

Last saturday i finally had a chance to go sunway pyramid! although ever been to kl for few times, we always miss this place. we went for ice skating. well well i don't know and din't skate before. so so obviously i fell down many times. hahahahahahah but at least im happy and satisfied that i can skate myself though not stable. you need courage to learn skating! =9

Most importantly, i met chingye there! and and peiting, fiona and chiew wen. so so so nice!!!! long time no see them... there is really a weird feeling when i met chingye. hahahaha some kind like im at kuching. wowowowowowowowowow. miss all friends. ='| and and chingye so ke qi la bought me a gift. hahahaha i haven eat it! she bu de mah. LOL~~~

Lai lai, let me introduce my coursemates to u all~

In the high class toilet! See the three with purple shirts? that is coincidence. haha from the left is me me then wan jun (joanne) in the middle and singling (oyaya) is the right. the girl on the most right wearing grey shirt is shengying, taking urban planning. then the yellow shirt girl is jenny (jennifer, wei wen, johnny LOL!). up of me is chii with black shirt and beside chii is rose with red shirt. both of them are malay! am i sure?? ya im sure!

the right one is farah, taking qs but choosing spec math

inside the inti bus, wanjun not ready haha

taking funny picture with wanjun. haha

weee i use the shoes with size number 36 or 4

break time, cleaning in progress

the shoes!

7 of us! rose went to join her friends.

sometime they move, sometime they don't move. LOL

CHING YE AND ME! KUCHING~~!!
to cy, i remember 1st of december. hahaha
and miss you la!

For Me Myself Pauline Only

2009-07-17T15:14:00.003+08:00

I enjoy my college life but somehow or other, i'm quite lost now. After been lazy for six months, i still continue to be the same. Maybe i'd enjoyed too much of the college life. Always thinking of going out to somewhere fun, attend any interesting programme or rather just chit chat endlessly. Assignments and reports are flying towards me, attacking me, stealing my time and making me stress. 7 subjects are getting harder and more confusing. I have the feeling that i'm getting numb, noob and boron in the class when i get so lost. My mind is getting more and more uncontrollable. I can't concentrate when the lecturer is teaching, using my mind to think useless things.

I asked myself yesterday. Where am i now, what am i doing now. Surprisingly, i was blank. My life is like illusion. I'm like living on other's life. I'm like watching a movie where i'm the main actor inside. It's scary. So i need to make clear of myself now.

Bear in mind, I'm Pauline. I'm now studying in INTI-UC. My coursemates are all from great education background. I need to work harder to catch up with them. I need to be hardworking and concentrate on my works. I need to be more socialable and make more friends. I need to take care of myself. I need to be independent. I need to learn to make decision correctly and precisely. I need to be strong. I need to be confident. I cannot let my family worry about me.

Clear Pauline? Get moving.

10 days away from home -and continueing-

2009-07-09T14:23:00.004+08:00

Finally I'm here sitting down, writing a post to update my blog. LOL!

Counting now, i've been here for 10 days! The first day i came, my procedures were really kelam-kabut. i was given a written sequence paper to follow, but i dint follow it at all. as i dint even know what the paper was for at that time. so i just ran upside down. after i'd signed my name on the attendance list, i was supposed to sit down, wait for my number to be shouted and get my documents from the official. but due to my excitement to know who my roomate is, i directly went to the accomodation sign up booth. lol after i got my key, i saw others were taking passport sized photos, so then i went to the booth to take my photo. 1, 2, 3 *not even ka-cak* it was done. okay then then meet a girl named joanne and her parents. there she told me the correct procedures. =.= so so so kelam-kabut that time. grrrrrr. @.@ okay okay, finally i've got everything done. time to go to my room!!

Things never go smoothly that day. i went into the male hostel!!! ohmygosh. how blurrrrrr we were. carrying all those heavy luggage down and up again to the female hostel. saw my room! it is the corner. wooo quite big. eh wait, im not the first one in the room. one of the beds was tidied and one of the tables was occupied. "i think there is already someone living here, probably an indian senior who went down the stairs just now when we climbed up" my mum scared me. oh well well, i just started to unpack all my luggage. wow, really didn't know how to organize and put all those things. *door knob turning* a girl came in, tada! and she, shi ling is my roomate. a brief introducing of ourselves and i continue to unpack my stuffs.

Lunch time! joanne's family and my family went for lunch together. we went shopping at giant first then go nilai's kopitiam to have a quite-full-lunch. 3pm! time to back inti again. see, again and again, something went wrong again at that time. my room key was not functioning well! =.=!! so i went to have my jpa briefing and my family helped me to report. 5pm, end of briefing and time to start orientation. mum, dad and bro need to leave also. *tut tut* my bro "tap" me on my shoulder and pointed to dad and mum. O.O!!!!!! both of them were tears-dropping. seriously, i never ever see my dad dropping any single drop of tear. and of cause!! how could i tahan, also tearssss-dropping on the way back to hostel. time to seperate, i went back to hostel and they were waiting taxi to go lcct. *wipe away tearsss* i need to continue on independent life at inti-uc, nilai.

3 days of orientation, i got to know my group members. we went for supper, drinks, couples-hunting, illegal campus tour, etc. the last day of orientation, candle-light sharing moment. it's really a touching moment. all of the groups sat in a circle, and voice out whatever he or she wanted. girls are really emotional. nearly all of the girls in my group cried. from there i got to know that different races really have very different mindset. it's good that we all can get used to the culture here as soon as possible so that it won't be so hard when we go overseas. but too bad that not all of us are taking sam, so now we seldom contact after the starting of courses. Group Passion! Passion with the fashion, we are the one. Passion with the fashion, here we come!

First day of "college-ing". nothing to comment. mostly everything went smoothly. the lecturers are quite friendly too.

My views of Inti-UC~
I don't know that it is only me or what, i notice that people speak english here with a different slang from what i usually listen in kuching. for example like questions. how do u pronounce it? here it is "ques-sions". for e-mails, it is e-"meals". okay maybe i heard them wrongly, but just my personal opinions.

Food here definitely can't compare with the food in kuching! Oh yeah, kuching-ians!! be proud of it! hahaha. maybe whoever wanna start off a bussiness, you can consider opening a sarawak food stall here. i would sure be your first customer!

Life here is really called the college life. lots of activities are being held nearly everyday, every night. even pc fair are held here, others like college idol, inti idol, etc. lots of competitions here. i can say that, swinburne cant compare with inti-uc!!! hahaahahaha *swinburne kia don't curse me! LOL*

Okay i think i should stop here. I'm able to write such a long post because i have gap of 4 hours in between my classes. but i should get going now, u know, i need to study wad! hahahahahaha see ya all~!

p/s:: a special big sincere thank you for Irene! Thank yousssssssss for guiding me here and don't mind i ask so many questions to you! and also sze yu *sorry im not sure how ur name spelled but don't doubt! its u from sarikei, sarawak!* thank you also for helping me to install dc++ to make my life here not isolated from latest movie! U all seniors are so nice! love you all~~~~~~~~~

Checklist

2009-06-20T23:16:00.003+08:00

Wow, 11 days to go.

Forms filled.

Contracts signed.

Medical check-up done.

Luggage bought.

Food bought.

Washing tools bought.

Photos not taken.

All documents not gathered.

Clothes not packed.

All things not arranged into luggage.

Hotel not settled.

AND

Kolomee not eaten.

Hang out with friends not enough.

Did I miss out something?

I'm..

2009-06-17T17:12:00.003+08:00

I can't remember today is Wednesday or Thursday or Friday. I can't remember today is 17th or 16th or 18th. I'm always like this recently.. (but but i do remember tomorrow is huili's birthday. hah!)

I don't know what am I suppose to do today. Online? Watch TV? I have no idea what to surf or watch. Yea, I'm always like this recently..

I slept at 4am yesterday and i woke up at 11am this morning. Quite early eh, i thought i might sleep till the noon..

And! I don't know what to post, what to update my blog. =.=.=.=.=.=

Feelings~
i feel guilty.. for not doing anything on this half year after spm... emmm, maybe i did do something... okay, not so guilty.

i'm "outdated"? i din't know much things. i din't have many news... i don't know many things.....

i'm leaving soon.. the weird thing is i don't have much feelings.... i don't have the "willingness" to get everything that needed to be prepared, prepared. =L (and i know that my brain is rusting. im quite worry about it....)

it's blur for what is going on... im always blur with what am i suppose to do in the next minute......

1 June @ Pandan Beach

2009-06-06T14:26:00.003+08:00

woohoo~ i know i know. i'm soooo late to post this.hohoho

well well well, i think i will just skip the "process". wakaka

mainly focus on photos~~ yuuhoo

get ready~

in car! snap till forgot we had cross the SEA. hoho

two of us! chok chok chok

us us! nice pose~~~

ah bear! u help me past my time in car! XDD

cap cap cap~~~

Friends a.k.a XYB crewz~ no need for me to say hor, u all know de nah..

I LOVE YOU ALL~ hahahahaha *shy shy* neh

can't wait for the next gathering to come~~~~~!

*credit to huili, thz for the photo software. =)

I'm not a devil

2009-05-26T22:15:00.002+08:00

I like rainy day....

But i don't like to be alone during rainy day.....

The thunderstorm was so evil.....

For me it was meant to punish devils.......

Did I do something wrong?

No?

But why did the thunderstorm scare me?........

I cook I eat I wash I sleep

2009-05-22T15:33:00.001+08:00

I cook. Yea, i cooked my lunch for this two days. *wink* I began to like cooking. Emm, cooking is not that hard but for me, cutting or chopping is even harder. Maybe i'm still not familiar with the knife. LOL! and i don't know how to control the strength needed to cut the vegetables and meats. Today i'd put too much salt on the cabbage. haha! salty salty but nevermind i "neutralised" it with white rice. XDD

I eat. I din't have my breakfast, but i have my own lunch~ Simple lunch as i'm the only one who is eating. lol sound bit pathetic.

I wash. Of cause of cause. Nobody is at home so i must wash the dishes myself. Not a hard task to complete though!

I sleep. Yeah! time to relax and rest my mind. I'm lazy to online, watch tv and read those books. So let my eyes close with hitz fm playing is a great choice. hohoho!

Whatsoever, overall i think i can live independently. =)

I'm contented

2009-05-18T21:04:00.002+08:00

I love last weekends.

We were so chok together.

We ate, we played, we talked, we took photos and we shouted.

I wish everyday is weekend so i wish i can always with you all~!

Just a simple post saying that i'm contented to have friends like you all.
=D

随兴随你高兴

2009-05-14T20:28:00.003+08:00

是该说点什么的。。。。。。

但干嘛我打不出来。。。。

是该快乐了。。。。。。。

但干嘛我闷闷不乐。。。。。

是该感恩的。。。。。。。。。

但干嘛我不削对他们。。。。。。。。

自以为是个乐天派

每天还不是想东想西

有股冲动想飞奔

逃离吗？

不是

应该是

浪。迹。天。涯。

Thank you

2009-05-11T11:05:00.003+08:00

7th of May, i got to know that it was tomorrow 3pm.

8th of May, 2.45pm, just knew that it'd postponed to 5pm! Never mind, i can wait..

4.45pm, i opened 3 tabs of esila website. LOL

5.00pm, i kept on refreshing the pages and as expected, page error and page error..

6.50pm, "wth is going on, it'd been late for 2 hours!" i expressed this on recom..

8.15pm, gave up and just had my dinner by this time..

9.30pm, opened the page again and nothing still... gave up again and went to watch a movie.

11.35pm, eehui messaged me and said it's ready to be checked now.. closed my half-way-watching movie and opened the firefox.

11.38pm, typed in my ic and sent. a page of words, didn't know where am i suppose to begin reading. saw my name, my chosen course, tiada, tiada and one berjaya. "u got it!" my bro shouted behind me. "huh" i was still blurring.. "is it real?!" after blurring and clear a bit.. "wait i called dad now!" "pa!" bro went to the staircase and shouted. "ah ling tiok jpa ah" "ha! shi meh?! jin heng le!" my dad rushed upstair and woke up my mum.. my bro read the letter word by word then with my 'shivering' hand, i moved the mouse and click terima. "真的吗, 真的吗, 真的吗" i kept on repeating these 3 words in mind as ah xon told me that last year his friend checked kena and the next day checked again it became tak kena.. so i closed the page, went to the esila and type in my ic once again and luckily it's still the same letter.. i was messaging with eehui that time, didn't know whether wanna say berjaya or not... as was really not confirm that time........

9th of May, 2.00am, i'm still awake...

3.15am, finally i'd got into my dream world...

9.20am, went and checked again, thank god..........

9.30am, replied ying and xon's messages... For my zhiying aka YING, i'm really touched by your message. promise me, forever and ever, don't never forget me! i wanna forever be your chok bf. ;-)

I'm grateful. So grateful. Thank you 观音娘娘, Thank you 姚家祖先, Thank you 老天爷, Thank you whoever pray for me, Thank you whoever congrates me! I really appreciate it so much...

For my dear aka hsbb aka MICHELE CHAI WAN SIAN, have faith for both of us =) different location, hearts remain connected. don't only tell me must eat my every meals ah, u also. drink water! and don't try to keep fit and skip ur meals. i still suka chubby chubby de u! HAHA

For my supporter aka XON, u always give me many useful advises and... u really care about me. hahahaha at least for me, i feel so. LOL and don't forget u will be my personal tour guild!

For PAMAMILI, hope that u guys wont get a person to replace PA yea! =D

And for my FRIENDS, u are all my backbone. sorry that i can't manage to get into form6 and have few months time with u all. but remember, always hang out when got time! =p

What am i writting?! sound like im leaving tomorrow. LOL mainly i just wanna express my gratitude for all my important friends. Good Luck to u all!!

Finally I'd been accepted

2009-05-06T02:30:00.002+08:00

Checked my status right after 12am. Accepted by st.thomas for form6. Oh yeah, i must be accepted. If no, i can really quit studying. Read through some posts about form6, i began to have a little faith for it. PA, MUET and further maths, these are all new for me.. the science subjects too, challenging. even the chemistry is divided into three parts.. gosh. form 6 will have no text books (i just know it now).. still lot of informations about form6 which are waiting me to discover..

Whatever, whatever. 11 May, i'll be going to register myself with the school uniform. (gosh, wearing form5 or form6's uniform?? = =)

Tagged by Dai Wo Zhou & Jen

2009-05-01T00:11:00.004+08:00

01 Who was your last text from ?
> jen

02 Where was your default picture taken?
> no default picture

03 Your relationship status?
> single

04 Have you ever lost a close friend?
> yea

05 What is your current mood?
> "emmm"

06 How many siblings do you have?
> two brothers

07 Whats your brother(s) or sister(s) name?
> ray and des

08 Where do you wish you were right now?
> taiwan (ya, i rmb!)

09 Have a crazy side?
> of cause

10 Ever had a near death experience?
> hopefully no

11 Something you do a lot
> sleeping

12 Angry at anyone
> ya, strangers

13 What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
> who is so proud and has no time for me

14 When was the last time you cried?
> four weeks ago

15 Is there anyone you would do anything for?
> ya, cause i love you ALL

16 What you think about when you are feeling asleep?
> starting to imagine things then fall asleep

17 Who was the last person you talked to on the phone
> my dad's friend, cause i was answering the phone

18 What is your favourite song?
> real man from jolin (for now)

19 What are you doing right now
> answering these questions

20 Who do you trust right now
> myself and god

21 Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
> from my wardrobe

22 Have you kissed someone in the past week?
> nope

23 Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
> kah san

24 Describe your life in a word.
> unpredictable

25 Who are you thinking of right now?
> itu dai wo zhou

26 What should you be doing right now?
> sleeping

27 What are you listening to?
> insects' talking?

28 Who was the last person you gave a hug?
> not so remember, but if through dai wo zhou, it's her bah

29 Who was the last person who yelled at you?
> mum

30 Do you act differently around the person you like?
> ya

31 What is your natural hair colour?
> black, but not so black

32 Who was the last person to make you laugh?
> itu xiao mei mei

33 Who was the last person that made you sad?
> not remember

34 What do you hear
> everything that catch my attention

35 Is your hair curly or straight
> straight, but not so straight

36 Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" face?
> no le

37 Do you have a best friend?
> en yea

38 Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
> no no

39 Do you use smiley face on your computer?
> =) ya

40 Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
> tak pernah

41 Are you happy with your life now?
> no, everything is uncertain

42 Are you currently jealous?
> yea

43 What jewellery are you wearing?
> necklace

44 What are you doing on Friday night?
> emm.. uncertain

45 Have you ever had your heart broken?
> not broken i think, but got scars

46 Have you ever broken someone's heart?
> no, i don't have the "ability" yet and i'm a nice person =)

47 Is there anyone you're really disappointed right now?
> yep, i care no more

48 What was the last reason you went for the doctor for?
> not remember lu, seldom see doctor

49 How late did you stayed up last night and why?
> 11pm plus, consider early already cause back from kl and ate so full

50 Have you dated someone longer than a year?
> nop

I welcome all tags, but i'm lazy to tag people. hehe

*lazy to change colour cause directly copy from dai wo zhou xiao mei mei.

Relaxing Trip

2009-04-30T18:04:00.008+08:00

Yuuuuuhoooooooo~! I'm back. =]

Finished my 4 days and 3 nights Genting's trip, started from 26th to 29 April. Going there with my mum and her friend's family. There are totally 12 of us~ Obviously most of the adults will be going there for gambling, while us underage teens definitely will be "abandoned". hahaha met my mum's friend's daughter, son and their cousins. they are all very nice but maybe i'm too quiet and shy so din't join them much. LOL still, nice to meet them all. then, met hui and deh on the second day. woo~! really a coincidence. at first i saw a girl who look like ah deh but can't believe that the two girls are hui and her. we spent our 2nd last day at genting's starbucks, walking around and chit-chat till 2am. now they suppose to be at kl shopping already.

Overall it's a relaxing trip. my confusing mind was gone during the past four days. the weather was around 17 degree celcius and i like it. walking around the whole genting, i found myself no worries. jogging around, chit and chat, release my tense. and i like to fly during night. the view from the plane was amazing. i'm so huge up there and the cars are so tiny. cute!

nice 180 degree view from my hotel room

the lady is so huge and i'm the tiny bowling ball

i'm so close with this uncle

four of us, met coincidently

inside the theme park hotel

remind me of moral project LOL

too bad the monkeys behind din't move haha

high high us, nice to meet u guys there!

hui always want to snap a pic with this caterpillar and me too XD

aboi reach 153cm! =!

hui, u are so tall!

**din't buy lot of things there. so friends sorry if i din't give u any souvenirs.hehe wait i go overseas baru buy u one. XD

If ?

2009-04-24T16:27:00.003+08:00

After the previous useless post, think it's time for a meaningful post.. it's not meaningful though, just a more serious and my random expression..

17 of April 2009. It's the day that the matriculation application's result was out. early in the morning, i was waken up by dad and mum, asking me to check my result. i replied them that nothing to be rush, i will check later. but dad couldn't wait as his friend's daughter had been selected. so he asked my bro to check for me. i knew that bro was checking for me that time, i lied on bed, having a confuse mind. i thought that i would get it, but then told myself nothing was sure plus chinese has less chance. few minutes past, nothing happened. dad came in, asked me go and see. the moment i saw the computer screen, i saw something like please berdaftar at 22 may 2009, din't know why my mind had the phrase. i thought my application was successful. but, after seeing it again. it meant the keputusan rayuan will be out at 22 may 2009. my application failed and bro click rayuan for me. cold and speechless. went back to my bed, closed my eyes. still like couldn't accept the truth. my mind was then full of question marks with my future. i will be going to form6, spending two years for stpm then apply for ipta, finally out for working. 2010 or 19 for stpm, 2011 or 20 go into uni, 2014 or 23 working. gosh. i'm already so old like that. if my stpm sucks, i will be studying course that i don't like or end up getting into private uni. really can't think further for it. the worser the further. yesterday went to swinburne for whole day, becoming a fake one-day-college-student. i'd got the thought that why i need to be so persistant, choosing the road that is full of fallen leaves. i can be like my friends, who are already starting their uni life now. i can then no need to waste my time, waiting for all those uncertain things. i can just enroll and go study together with my bro and friends, having lunch together, rushing assignment together, going class together, laugh together, etc. but now it's all too late. i'd chosen the option. now just face it. no more "IF".

good luck. i love you all.

H.O.T

2009-04-24T15:47:00.003+08:00

Hot hot hot hot hot..........

The water is so warm even with the heater turning off.

Fly fly fly fly fly............

I wanna fly to the coldest country.

Woooooooooooeeeee

I'm crazy now as it is too hot~!!!!!!!!

Swimming swimming pool, i wish i have a swimming pool at my house.

Choooooooooooook.

Alone By Myself

2009-04-08T14:39:00.003+08:00

I am feeling the loneliness.. It's haunting me.. Mum started to work today.. I'll be alone with aunt and grandma at home.. I'm at upstairs and have no one to talk to.. pathetic.. I want to continue my study as soon as possible but none want me.. checked ipta yesterday night. they rejected me too.. everything deals with government are none of the chinese's business.. they are all for malays.. we chinese or non-bumiputera are not important for them. they so hope we can faster extinct from malaysia.. can't blame anyone but me as borned in this country.. 9 days to matriculation, leave no hope..

Waste 20 bucks

2009-04-07T13:08:00.002+08:00

Adalah dimaklumkan bahawa permohonan anda tidak berjaya.

PETRONAS ingin mengucapkan Selamat Maju Jaya dalam bidang yang bakal anda ceburi.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Failed.. ya, i really din't expect to be shortlisted.. but of course i appreciate it if i have a chance to go for the educamp.. =(

sorry dad, waste your RM20 to apply for nothing..

Early Countdown

2009-04-07T12:07:00.003+08:00

10 days to wait~
wooooooeeeeeee
*im neither nervous nor excited.. maybe need to wait till final countdown 3 days..*
i bet im the only chinese who is so eager to go matriculation.. right right?? lol i know my chance of getting it is not so high though.. chinese bah.. malaysia is always malay first.. everything connects with government is always like this... no offence, at least it's my mindset..

off topic>>
i love my new belonging~ woohooeee~! when i was still a small kid, i always imagined that i'd one.. and now.. i really has it for real!! yeapiiiee~

Bad Bad Bad

2009-04-03T12:13:00.006+08:00

Wooooo~Hooooooooooo!

Yeah, it finished and i did badly.. it's true. i kept stammering and coughing gok.. *==!* grrrr.. it's over anyway!

First i thought i would be the only one from kuching high but when i arrived there at about 7.30am i saw lots of highians. the first one i saw is shu yi. i not sure if i'm late but i saw shu yi already ready to enter the "boarding area" where parents were not allowed to go in and we could not go out as well. shu yi and olin were the group one, earliest group. then met jia ling, dorothy, charlene, valerie, terrence and ming hui. dad was accompanying me and jia ling's mum too. we sat together and the parents chatted. then shu yi them came out, and got some info from her, she was having about canning issue and it was ready for the group 2 too.

i was in group 2, with jia ling in the same panel 2 while terrence, ming hui and charlene in panel 1. we were led by the secretary to the lift, going to level 1, walked to a room, found a seat and sat down. we sat according to panel. there was 3 girls and 2 boys in my panel. all of us are chinese except one boy. i was number 4. so no.1 is a bumiputera boy from bintulu but studied in smk sains(mechanical engineering), no.2 is a girl from lodge(civil engineering & specialise in environment), no.3 is a boy from batu lintang(biotechnology) and no.5 is jia ling(science). another secretary came in and taught us how to arrange the our photostated certs and ic. she also asked about who was now studying a-level or foundation in private university or college. after arranging all our certs, she collected all the files and sent them next room. while waiting for calling, we just chatted a little. then after the previous group had finished, yeah it's finally our turn.

the no.1 go into the room then followed by one another. 3 interviewers inside the room, normal discussion room and not so big. 2 females and 1 male. one indian female who looks fierce, one malay female who always smiles at us and one malay male who is nothing for me to comment. *haha* then the malay female who sat on the middle called out my name *shocked and wonder why she called me first* then i raised up my hand and she said,"oh, poh ling no.4. okay." she then continued by confirming all our name and our number.

the first session was introducing ourselve, all of us did in english. the interviewers asked some question when they had some doubts on your introduction.

the second session was giving out points on a topic. my topic was "Sport in Malaysia is not so well recognised. What's your opinion in boosting our country's sport sector?" we need to answer in english the no.3 guy raised up his hand and answered first then the malay female interviewer instructed no.1 then me. don't ask me how i answered it cause i was really blank and blur when giving my answer. of course, i stammered a lot and i bet i was the only person in my group who pause so long. when i pause, the room was totally in silence, all eyes waiting for me to continue. goosh that's how i screwed up.

the same session, but this time we needed to answer in bm. actually they wanted us to do group discussion but due to the time, they just asked us to give out our opinion ourself. the malay male asked the question, "Sektor Pertanian di negara kita jarang disukai oleh generasi muda, apakah langkah anda untuk mengatasinya?" i'm even worst in this session. i was the last one to answer. gooooooooosh again. my points were already used by them. when it's my turn, i told the interviewers that i was going to conclude all the points giving out. guess what, the indian female interviewer laughed at me and said,"ini yang paling mudah ho, rumus saja semua pendapat, tak perlu fikir senang sekali." *execute me* so i repeated some points which were already used and bla bla something.

then the last session, FAQ. i planned to ask when can we know our scholarship results but..... again... grrrr the no.1 boy asked it.. *= =* then the no.3 boy asked something too. we 3 girls din't ask anything. after all, we were free to leave. we all din't give the interviewers a handshake although my dad asked me to do it. i back at about 11 something.

overall i really did badly la.. could not answer spontaneously, er-er-er like that macam mana boleh dapat. ={ and i was shivering inside the interview room, jia ling saw it and i think the interviewers also. baaaad impression. ahhhhhhhh
*thanks my dad for waiting me at the lobby until i ended my interview. kamsiah~
*din't take a photo on me with baju kurung as no one had the mood. LOL

another countdown..
14 days (322 hours : 53 minutes : 07 seconds)

顺其自然

2009-04-02T11:45:00.002+08:00

It's tomorrow~!
No more countdown..
Gonna write a memorable page of my life. Yeah, new experience. Everything not done before. Great to have this chance to open my eyes, discover new things and meet new people.
Wow.. Confused mind, can't describe any of my emotion or feel now. LOL

Yep, I'm gonna say the phrase again.. 顺其自然~
I remembered 6 years back, when i was having my UPSR examination, my mum din't go back home but waited me at the canteen till i'd finished my exam.. then some reporters came to the school and interviewed my mum and her other friends who were also waiting for their baby son or girl to finish their exam. when the reporter asked my mum what did she expect for her daughter's (that's me =p) results, my mum just answered 顺其自然~ and finally the next year when my results were out, 6a! yaya, i know it's not straight but my mum and i were sastified already. after getting results and back home, my mum said it's her "顺其自然" to bring me lucks and get this good results. hahahaha~

So, mum! hope the "顺其自然" this time can also bring me lucks ya..

Yeah yeah.. i'm now more more nervous than the day when i'm getting results 3 weeks ago..

Eyes, I need you.

2009-03-30T14:33:00.002+08:00

I feel like i'm gonna be blind.. my short-sighted might be increasing to about 800 degree..

==!!!

Everyday just staring at the computer.. reading, surfing, browsing, and blogging...

*sweat me again*

Yesterday night i had a terrible dream.. i dreamed that my dad was the interviewer and i had my interview at home, in front of my dad. i'm the 3rd in a group of five. when it was my turn, i stammered when introducing myself with my broken english as well. then dad told me that i would definitely fail like that. *thunder struck me* and jumped to the next dream..
Countdown 4 days or 81 hours and 11 minutes. guess i must start working on my script now. i'm going to write essay again. gosh.. stress and tensed is here again... grrr........

Good luck for all the interviewees.

Blow up.

2009-03-26T21:22:00.004+08:00

Lost my temper.

Broke down.

I'm forcing myself too hard..

I'm too tensed..

My head is gonna blew up.

Chill, pauline...

CHILL!!!!

I'm too depressed. I made myself to be like this. Myself to blame. I've been staying indoor for too long.. Going out for fresh air isn't work for me either... I feel like buying an air ticket and fly to far far enough.. I wanna scream, scream my heart out. I wanna burst into tears, right above the peak of hill. I don't wanna sleep but wait for the sunrise. I wanna see the upper edge of the sun appears above the horizon in the east. I want a NEW day for me everyday.

What a moron am I.. Stupid. Hell. I hate myself for being like this. I wish to lock this post, don't wanna bother anyone to spend time reading it. Out. Quit reading. I'm just expressing my current feeling here. Nothing happen. I'm fine after all.

Worrying something that won't be happened on me. SILLY.

You aren't the best, thus you can't do to the best....
it's for me.

100 Mys

2009-03-10T20:45:00.003+08:00

Tagged by dear

1. Last beverage→ plain water
2. Last phone call→ tze
3. Last text message→ ying
4. Last song you listened to→ love in this club
5. Last time you cried→ dream counted? last week

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice→ nope
7. Been cheated on?→ yap
8. Kissed someone & regretted it?→ nope
9. Lost someone special?→ nope
10. Been depressed?→ yap
11. Been drunk?→ nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. pink
13. red
14. white

HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends→ yap
16. Fallen out of love→ nope
17. Laughed until you cried→ yap
18. Met someone who changed you→ yap
19. Found out who your true friends were→ yap
20. Found out someone was talking about you→ yap
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ nope
23. How many kids do you want to have→ 2 and all girls are better
24. Do you have any pets→ yap
25. Do you want to change your name→ nope, I like Pauline. =)
26. What did you do for your last birthday→ went out with friends, having steamboat
27. What time did you wake up today?→ around 11am =p
28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ dancing with fingers
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for→ penthouse
30. Last time you saw your father→ 15 minutes ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life→ have a caring elder sister
32. What are you listening to right now→ 傻 by queenie
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom→ nope
34. What's getting on your nerves right now?→ how's my day after tomorrow
36. What's your real name→ EPL
37. Relationship Status→ single
38. Zodiac sign→ sagittarius
39. Male or female→ female
40. Elementary→ elementary what?
41. Middle School→ SMK Pending and KHS
42. High school→ KHS
43. Hair color→ natural black
44. Long or short→ long
45. Height→ honestly? 150cm
46. Do you have a crush on someone?→ yap
47. What do you like about yourself?→ i don't care much
48. Piercings→ yap
49. Tattoos→ nope
50. Righty or lefty→ righty

FIRSTS :
51. First surgery → --
52. First piercing → when i'm 5
53. First tattoo → --
54. First best friend → karen =)
55. First sport you joined → badminton
56. First pet → kitten
57. First vacation → kl and genting
58. First concert → --
59. First crush → morgan then. anyone knows? XD (he doesn't know me)
60. First alcohol drink → beer

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating → nope
62. Drinking → nope
63. I'm about to → read online novel
64. Listening to → true colours by olivia ong
65. Waiting for → this tagging to finish

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? → yap if the kids are quiet
67. Want to get married? → yap
68. Careers in mind? → mad scientist

WHICH IS BETTER IN A PARTNER?
69. Lips or eyes → eyes, the first sight
70. Hugs or kisses → hugs
71. Shorter or taller → taller
72. Older or Younger → older
73. Romantic or spontaneous → romantic
74. Nice stomach or nice arms → nice arms
75. Tattoos or piercings→ piercings
76. Sensitive or loud → loud?
77. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger → nope
80. Drank hard liquor → nope
81. Lost glasses/contacts → nope
82. Sex on first date → nope ==!
83. Broken someone's heart → nope, i belongs to the next question
84. Had your own heart broken → yap
85. Been arrested? → nope
86. Turned someone down → yap
87. Cried when someone died → yap, the person in the film
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → yap, it's still like-ing

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → yap
90. Miracles → yap
91. Love at first sight → yap
92. Heaven → yap
93. Santa Claus → nope
94. Kissing on the first date? → yap if the feel is right
95. Angels → nope

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yap
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → nope
98. Do you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? → yap, for now
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? → food
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → yap, can it be 100 Pauline's?

My 2007-2008

2009-03-02T16:21:00.002+08:00

Now i'm reading back my old blog.. it reminds me those happy memories in my 2007-2008... the "style" of my blogging that time was quite childish and cute.. lol if compared, this blog is rather quite serious...

read many about my rc memories in the old blog... i admit that i really miss those moments.... in the old blog, i complained that i'd ton of paper works to do, going to weekly meeting again, etc.... huuuuu~~~ *sad feeling....*

besides than rc, there were also many school life memories..... 14 of us only in 5s4, photo-taking session in great wall, etc.... high school life.... ahhhhhhhh~~~ *sad feeling again.......*

so so so so..... blogging is quite good... it helps you to keep your memories, share your feeling with others and let your children or grandchildren to read in the future... looolx

continue blogging guys~~~!!

LOST RIP

2009-03-01T22:18:00.003+08:00

I never thought that i will face the situation like now.. i'm now lost in choosing where to go after getting my spm results.. in the past, i told myself that since i'm good in math, i'll go for quantity surverying and also i'm not from the rich family so i'll go for matriculation.. but now, after i've finally decided to spend some time to search in google, read through some forum, i realised that i shouldn't be limitted by qs and matriculation only..

hell.. i never get to bother about my path after spm when im in f5 or after spm... but the date of getting spm results is just around the corner.. and i would admit that it makes me nervous.. matriculation is still an unknown for me.. i'm still not sure whether can i get the ticket of entering it.. and i also doubt my future from there... some people in the forum said that you will probably be stucked there after matriculation if your results are poor.. you have difficulty in applying for local uni and on the other hand you are also difficult to find jobs as the matriculation doesn't have the public qualification like stpm... if you can't enter local uni and want to go for private, u probably need foundation for 1 more year... this fears me.... i always thought matriculation is the shortest path for uni life.... but now it seems not a 100% fact.... as for qs.. if compared, civil engineering has a brighter future... some recommend that if you are good in math, you can try financial accounting and actuarial science.. accounting is definitely out for me and i'm not sure what actuarial science is..... and the last point... local uni or private?????!!!!! GOSH.......... everyone's advises for me are so minor.... i need to round out for a conclusion as soon as i can.......

confused, lost, dizzy and struggling..................
i'm pushing myself too hard.............
i still have 11 more days to RIP....................

Ghost in tHe Spring

2009-02-26T14:52:00.005+08:00

My bro found this video on youtube.. Ghost "walking" in the spring.. I've no idea that is which part of the spring and i also not sure this video is only made for fun or a real video..

p/s: Don't worry, this is not a horror ghost video and there will also no monster pops out suddenly.. Just a "calm" ghost video..

Surprised

2009-02-22T20:19:00.004+08:00

this morning went to batu kawa for breakfast.. the meat ball kolo mee there is very nice and the meat balls are so Q~ and there in the kopitiam i saw a girl worker wore our khsrc 40th anniversary t-shirt.. but i can't recognize the girl, not a khsrc member i think.. maybe the girl's sister or brother din't like the t-shirt and gave it to her.. is it because the t-shirt's design or its material? frankly for me, i seldom wear that t-shirt.. as it was too hot when wearing it.. especially when wearing it to walk in the street for lunch, shopping or whatever.. i still prefer kem jaya diri's t-shirt.. hahaha~ [eh, but i also like 40th anniversary de la.. lolx]

then after eating i saw a kitten.. it is so small and skinny like a rat! even a rat is fatter than it... when it saw us walking pass, it kept on meow-ing... poor little thing must be starving.... really felt so sad when saw it..... haizz.. but too bad i can't do anything for it... and few stray dogs at that area too.... =( people please... please stop abandoning little animals... they are so cute~!!!!!

and they need you..

HSH up up!

2009-02-21T23:22:00.003+08:00

Views changed with HSH and BBT~~!

the show, BBT always seem to be more popular than HSH.. indeed for me in the past when lollipop and aben them were still there.. every episode there would sure have some funny stuffs.. after they were graduated, i din't watch every episode of the show but i chose those with interesting theme of the day.. obviously, the new didi now don't reach for the standard.. no 淘汰赛 in the past would put into only one episode, except for this time.. their performances were really speechless for me.. none of the didi's performance was fully shown, all were being cut.. even the BBT monitor, ahliang... as a monitor but he din't show a good example for the other didi.. he not only pull huya down in the 淘汰赛 but also pull down the image of BBT.. try compare owodog with ahliang... it's really so shameful for ahliang... moreover, i thought after the 淘汰赛 ahliang will be more serious at least when others talked about that 淘汰赛 matter.. but don't know why as if he wants to go 谐星路线! always try to say jokes and act funny in the show.. but know what, for me those are not funny at all but look stupid!! pathetic~! for the brand new season of BBT, lollipop and aben them with ahjie and huya will be in the show.. i'm not sure for the rest of the new didi like xia en.. my opinion for andy ge is just stop fooling those didi and us.. enough for me about BBT, no special themes for the show which make me quite reluctant to watch it..

HSH~~! very funny for me.. i like all the mm inside.. the number of mm in every episode is not too many, the mm consist of Hei Girls and all familiar mm like yaoyao,yutu etc.. the themes of the show are interesting and the mm are so funny! especially yaoyao.. and few days ago, the show had a theme of talking about secrets or 八卦.. it's really nice for us girls who like 八卦.. haha~ it's true that blackie said when girls are together, the main topic is 八卦.. mm talked about the secrets in HSH.. one of the mm in relationship with one idol etc.. although they din't say out the name but still can check online or in forum cause everyone are discussing about that.. and also from the forum, many said that guigui doesn't like tangguo.. for me i agreed.. tangguo quite cold for me in the show.. her expression are quite unusual... no offence..

lastly~~~ what i wanna say here in this post is i've changed view with both HSH and BBT..

I Like HSH More Than BBT NOW~~!

but.... owodog is still no.1 for me~~!

p/s:: xiao man is really so emo now.. visit her blog then you'll know.. quite shock when visited her blog.. it's really not like a blog than idol should keep.. seriously..

So sweet

2009-02-06T14:00:00.003+08:00

天马行空
by 林子良

whetha' dreamin' deamin' it's lighis on! jl's like da king of da song ...
ha ha... dreamin...　hopin' how can i keep faith flyin like a kite ...
may i may i may i please! shine it with a spotlight sayin' that's right...
my... my... my... Oh my... style of a special oriental...
遇到她的时候　天空下着苹果
世界突然不同　都变了
天马飞起行空　我听见她说爱我
风在摸摸我的头说 i'm feelin' so lucky 羡慕我
节奏感也随着PUppuy 脚步跳动
喔～　行人的笑容　都好像烟火
漂亮的也袅缤纷的来陪着我
都因为她现在牵的是我的手
她是天上才有
开始喜欢地球　爱到脑袋空空
当她出现时后　Oh Hoo~
遇到她的时候　天空下着苹果
世界突然不同　都变了
天马飞起行空　我听见她说爱我 maybe~
吊钢索喔或变出一只手
如果她想要我通通非常的有把握
72变不够　爱她让我天马行空
想～　说 Encore 所有～让每分每秒从头
我和她的世界不开放　Oh NO
才不管别人会怎么想我
生命中的美好只要跟她分享
就算别人会笑我像个傻瓜　oh ho
遇到她的时候　天空下着苹果
世界突然不同　都变了
天马飞起行空　我听见她说爱我
maybe~ 翻跟斗或游泳去月球
如果她要　我也不怕　就算天要咳嗽
72变不够　爱她让我天马行空
风在摸摸我的　我的　我的头说
现在有她非常非常运气不错
宅急通会为我　为我为我专送我的爱情全球一起感动
我要臭屁全宇宙最称头
我有了她以后　
什么都非常的reasonable
天马现在准备行空
遇到她的时候　抱紧她的时候
拥有她的时候　握着她的手说
我感谢感谢老天爷　我感谢这个缘分
让我们搭讪　让我背你爬山
let me and you fly in da sky so high so high
you can imagine let me and you tie together forever so clever
带你走　去见见我的world 你说
想要什么什么感动　我为你作
遇到你的时候　抱着你的时候
爱上你的时候
喔～
72变不够
爱你让我天马行空

A very sweet song especially for couples!
Fall in love with this song when the first time i heard it.
If anyone sing this song for me, i'll surely be melt~!
Oh~
Wish all couples Happy Valentine!

Mooo Moooo

2009-01-25T21:51:00.003+08:00

still remember last year i will countdown cny from about a week ago..
but this year...
nope..
just don't have the feel....
but anyway, it's still a must for me to say~

Happy 牛 Year!!

Happy Always | Cheers

Noobo's Legend

2009-01-23T11:56:00.007+08:00

Let's introduce~~~~

Popobe!
(for the time being, i've no idea of its name..)
He's going to fight with Noobo!!!

Ready?!

Wow! who will win???!

Gosh!! Noobo has fainted!!

Tada~ Obviously, popobe wins! and the prize is~ d mints... XD

okay okay... it's totally a lame post... actually i wanna edit d pics and make this post as funny as possible.. but again again... i'm too lazy..... :x

few hours to go..
it's CNY!
well...
to be frank...
i'm still not in the mood..
:(

Report

2009-01-22T10:02:00.006+08:00

Okay okay.. Gotta admit that it's really so late for me to report my trip in kl.. hahahah and btw, i dint snap lot of photos in kl.. Cause the time is mainly occupied for shopping.. so i choose not to post any here. XD

6 Jan 2009
We arrived KIA around 9am.. !! When we were waiting to check in, i checked my hp and the dumb airasia crews just sent message for me that our flight had delayed! The time of recieving is 9.13am when we were already arrived.. Sigh.. We just could wait there stupidly lo.. Finally reached the time for entering the gate, then the noob crews change the number of gate in the last minute! So all of the passengers quickly dashed towards gate 1 (we were at gate7!!!).. Gosh.. Thank God, we had a save flight.. Nothing special then, just the taxi drivers in kl sentral were so rude! As the delay of flight, it's quite late when we had settled everything down in bintang warisan hotel.. Ying's mum and her sis felt tired that time so just me, my mum and ying went out to shop that evening.. First station! Bosini, if i'm not wrong.. We bought nothing there as quite expensive the clothes... SO, BB plaza or Sungei Wang plaza.. Wooo~! Surprisingly, i'm the first to buy things.. haha that night i bought one skinny jeans and a so-called 长马甲.. Nice nice and resonable price too.. Ying dint buy any cause she cant make decision of buying which pattern... It was late edy! So back to hotel~

7 Jan 2009
We spent whole day in SW! wakaka we all bought ton of clothes.. XD and there~ we saw a most style guy with a cool girl while having lunch in the six floor.. they are the perfect match!! woo~ we really had fate with the guy.. haha cause we met him again in a shop, shibuya~ so then, we called him shibuya, no.6! hahaha that night ying, her sis and i on9 in the lobby and we met kenny! really so chun.. haha he with xian wei, daniel them.. they lived 7th floor and we 8th floor and they went one day earlier than us and we with same flight back~

8 Jan 2009
In the morning, we seperated to two groups~ Ying's family went to chi chiong gai while my mum and i went to time square.. The time was really so rush.. and due to my mum's pesonality (love to rush people!!), i couldn't manage to shop there.. just bought the popobe and mum bought some clothes then left edy.. at first thought that could see those emo people in the i-socks.. but many of the shops opened around 11am.. RUSH~! ..... so returned back to hotel and waited for ying them... then~~ transfered our things to mid vally! the luggage were so heavy that time edy!! XD den having lunch in the food court in mid valley and ying, her sis saw shibuya! lolx.. really so high la that time.. bt i dint see~ cause we separated to eat... then began our journey to search that shibuya.. we really so crazy! we search him all over the mid valley.. we even went into a salon! (a cut above) hahaha.. we rehearsed outside the shop that if the shopkeeper asked us, we would answer that 我要找我妈妈.. hahaha damn stupid!! like we lost our mummy! but too bad.. we dint find tiok him...

9 Jan 2009
SHOP! lolx... shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping eat shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping eat shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping shopping sleep.

10 Jan 2009
Last day edy!! 最后冲刺~!! hahahaha ok ok.. skip! then jiu arrived LCCT.. met kenny them and in the plane..... home sweet home! i love kuching~

Next post......
why so serious~

Tagged by Jen

2009-01-22T09:34:00.003+08:00

START

Rules:
Do not copy answers
Tag questions must be exactly the same.
Tag people before doing the tag
p/s:the people below might dint own a blog..and i would skip the tagging action..cause it will be more fun and easier for me~forgive my laziness..XD
1. Dad
2. Mum
3. Ray
4. Desmo
5. Xuan
6. Ying
7. Huili
8. Lam
9. Kido

How did you know 1?
since i born,i was asked to call him dad..

What would you do if you never met 2?
no way!

What would you do if 3 and 4 dated?
i would dig my eyes out..

Would 5 and 6 make a good couple?
nono.. 5 is mine..hahaha

Do you think 7 is attractive?
yaya..and heard ying said she made up..woo~~

*skip 8*

Tell me something about 9.
lame..chok..

What is 1's favourite past time?
read newspaper..

What language does 2 speak?
mandarin,hakka,hokien..

Who is 3 going out with?
friends,tze..

How old is 4?
85 de..calculate yourself..

When was the last time you talked to 5?
talk ah? forget lw..

Who is 6's favourite singer?
prince..

Would you date 7?
yapx..

Is 8 single?
she dint tell me boh..

What is 9's last name?
jong..

Done~~!

OMG

2009-01-21T20:30:00.004+08:00

OMG.

OMG ..
OMG~~~!!!
Guess what i saw!!!
Bape x Bearbrick!!
**puppy eyes**

popobe is out now..hahaha

Helo helo!

2009-01-21T19:51:00.005+08:00

A late post from me~~~! hahaah..
sorry everyone, just feel reluctant to post new article.. haha thanks to the slow line and lag pc lo.. XD
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knt post kl de trip article today lu.. == cause photos in bro's pc and he's out.. then afterwards maybe out with mum them.. maybe nia la~ kaka

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opppss..
i haven't eat gok...

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i've no idea what to wear during CNY~!!!!
gosh gosh...
:xxxxxx

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nah dear~
i update my blog liaw ah..
haha

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upcoming post...
Popobe VS Noobo~!
stay tuned...

2009-01-05T11:14:00.001+08:00

Hey yo~!
Going to KL tml..
Travelling only btw..
haha
Bye for the time being~~

Santubong

2008-12-30T14:40:00.003+08:00

Tada~ Here I came again, Santubong! haha.. Too bad that I couldn't join bro them went up there in the afternoon..

Merry Christmas~Bro, Tze and Mum.. Desmo being the photographer.. I probably still at home preparing to go AG..

Yeah yeah yeah~! Here I'd "transferred" from KHS to Santubong.. haha

The Next Morning~

Nice shot!

LOL..

Another nice shot!

hahaha I like swing~

Pool is nice..

I'm so short! The water level reach my neck.. ==

Woooo~ Next week going to KL lo.. Really so fast...

2009 is COMING~!!

Annual Gathering 2008

2008-12-30T13:52:00.007+08:00

10 of us attend the AG on last Saturday, 27 December 2008. Just manage to capture some photos after finished...

fio joined us after 9pm

blur blur de paiseh. hahaahem ahem~

bro suddenly bcum d photographer ki..

me & huiyi

HEHE

HAHA

haw,thz for bending ur head.. haha

brighter~

taken by hoong loong i thk..

4 years of ex-leaders together~! (05-08)

huili MIA~

jz 7 of us in the end.. huili, yuan & louis home edy..

so chun.. all dint look at the camera..

paiseh penny,my camera dint recognize u.. haha

By,
Ex-leaders of 2008,
Pauline.Yao
hahahaha XD

Listen Law~!

2008-12-21T16:29:00.002+08:00

Woo.. finally i'd listened to the law.. phwwww~
We (me, ying and karen) "shared" one sifu, mr.lim.. this morning about 7.30am he arrived my house with ying.. i'm glad that he was punctual.. then went to pick up karen..
In the car.. *gosh* mr.lim loves to talk, tells story and explains lots of things...
Last few days i just asked him whether had he register (listen law) for me cause i afraid that i didn't have enough time to learn driving and suddenly wanna gave up on it... i just wanna asked if he hadn't register for me, i would like to postpone it to next year after chinese new year.. but guess what??! he misunderstood... =='' he thought that i didn't wanna learn driving with him because of his "high fees".. well~! i'm not afraid to admit that i didn't understand a single thing or even didn't bother to compare the driving fees.. so i really din't know that your charge was high! but, after you had told me, now i knew.. *evil grin*
So on the way going to karen's house, he kept on "lecturing" me (i think)... he said lots about the procedure to get a P lisence.. he said after sitting for the law test and the bengkel lecture, we could find any sifu to learn driving.. he "emphasised" that we didn't have to choose him cause he knew that many other sifu-s charge cheaper... BUT~ he said he'd taught driving for 28 years and he will teach mainly on 7 miles area and he said the traffic there is quite chaos so we can learn more than others in area like bintawa or pending.. well.. i'm not familiar with 7 miles so can't deny any of his words...
So.. along the way i just sat behind kept nodding my head and "en en en" till reach karen's house.. :s then karen's here and he started to brief us about what were we going to learn this morning.. *bla bla bla bla....*
Finally~ reach the centre.. went to line up and had our thumb scanned.. *skip here cause nothing special*
In the room.. *OMG* those officers are really so waste of time..! the colour test was scheduled to start at 8.3oam but postponed till about 9.30am just because of the late coming lecturer! Ordinary (maybe rather a super duper boring) lecture after that.. *zzzzzzZZ*
Break!!! 1 hour break untill 1pm.. we went to the cafe.. a very large kopitiam but with few tables and chairs.. swt... at there! we saw kelvin phoon (sorry if i spell his name wrongly.. cause i don't know him :x).. it was ying who discovered him at first but when she told me and karen, both of us didn't believe her..
me:"bukan la..this guy de hair aneh *dut dut* mana shi kelvin!"
karen:"yalo..kelvin de body not like this guy de la.."
MANA EH ZAI!! after "checking" few times and observed closer, that guy was really the s2's kelvin.. :x speechless.. he just changed lots!!
Also... saw a kuching high's f4 girl (who used to be a rc member before), louis kueh and chen ling..
One last thing that i wanna said here was.... the huana! awww.. really can't stand them for one second... no need ask why.. all of us know what is the feel! grrr... (though they din't kap tiok me)
==

By the way..
i'm not saying mr.lim not good too...
just..
uncle, u missunderstood me..
T.T

94 years old Doulos

2008-12-13T21:39:00.003+08:00

Went to Doulos this afternoon. Wooo~ It's really hot.. Don't think all the angmo can stand the weather oh.. hahaha Din't buy anything though cause it's quite squeeze in there so no mood to browse those books... They are using "unit" for the price~ 25 units equal to RM2 so 100 units equal to RM8! Great ship and awesome crews there.. haha and bro said that Titanic's age is quite same with this Doulos!

Mum with tze~ the ship is quite huge!

Me with "surprised" mum behind.. lolxAww~ Sunlight made my eyes ==

Special staircase with my PEACE~!

Doulos ruleszz!

It's a female inside the cartoon oh!

XDDDDD damn stupid!

GBA.. don't know what does it mean..haha

SEE~! so many cars...

Guiness Records! Oldest ship.. 1914!Finally~ It's my korea name! A korean there help me to write.. You just need to pronounce your name then she will write it for you~!

Then then then~~
Go to tHe Spring! Spring Idol is taking place that time..
We went to Ta Kiong and it gave me an idea to start learning cooking during this holidays~! hahhahaah

Chair Trekking

2008-12-13T21:09:00.004+08:00

Start!
Let's "chair trekking"!
Turtle is so awesome~ He manage to reach the peak!

Huu~ just another step...Wow~ It's so exciting hanging on the peak!

Hey hi! I'm the first and only one turtle!

Actually.... It's quite tired to hang here.... ==

Aww.. Stop taking photos on me...

*Grin*

I know I know.. I know I'm cute~!

Don't fall in love with me ya~

Yeah~! I'm the king of the TURTLE!

XDDDD
Again, friends...
Do enjoy and be crazy during holidays!!!

**Special casting::P's Turtle

Majong Turtle!

2008-12-12T14:25:00.002+08:00

Dear~! You give me the turtle is so amazing!! See..! It can play majong~~~

Emm.. What's next...
Aww~ I love majong!!

Hahahahaahaha I know I'm lame.. wakakakaka
Yesterday hold turtle and sleep then! Gosh.. I dreamt of that "turtle".. hahaha But that "turtle" is not this turtle~
Confuse? As long as I din't it's ok!
XDDDDDD

Have a nice day friends~
Enjoy your holidaysss!

10 December 2008

2008-12-10T23:44:00.001+08:00

10 December 2008

Yeah~! I'm 17 years old!
Celebrate with dear chele, ying and hui mamiie at mitsu shabu and the spring.
Tada~! Photos below~~~

Ying with the so-called special-shaped ice at shabu shabu.

Crayon Shin Chan~ Cake from ying and chele.. Din't eat it at shabu but brought it home~
Then~ We walked to the spring.. That night was quite windy and our forehead was finally seen.haha We walked walked and walked then eventually stopped at starbucks..

Present from dear chele, turtle~

Aww.. the passer-bys kept looking at me..lolx

With dear chele~

With ying~

Emm.. That time hui was talking in phone so can't manage to snap a photo with her~

The four of us~

Then then then.. We went home lu~ I'm the first.. At bout 10pm.. hahaha
Arrive home~
Normally, walked into my house and headed upstairs to my room. Felt weird that time cause upstairs was so dark and my room's door was closed. I grabbed the door knob and turned clockwise and then~! Tze was holding a candle-lighted birthday cake and sang the birthday song! hahaha Big bro was inside the room and 2nd bro was coming out from his room with camera.

Shocked that time~ XD

The birthday presents~

Crystal necklace from two brothers and tze~

Earings from ying~

Angpao from ying's mum~thz aunty!

Turtle and card from dear chele~

Turtle said happy birthday~

Girls watch from hui~

Cheese cake from taiwan cake house~ nice!
Tada~ all of them!
And and~ two art works form chele and hui..! hahaah

Woo~ after settle down for everything, play cards with mum..

See the turtle so kepo wanna join pun! hahahah

Hehehehe
Really really thanks all the birthday wishes from you guys no matter through sms, msn, friendster, facebook or face to face!
I really had a great birthday this year. This year end some of you might going to ns but nevermind! We'll still meet and I won't forget you guys~
Ying and hui, haizz.. It's really sad we can't go kl together... Now I even don't have the heart to go already.. It will definitely not fun without both of you~! T.T
No matter how, cherish our friendship...!

I love you all~!

A bird in a cage

2008-12-03T13:12:00.003+08:00

Sorry my friends, I put aeroplane again today. Guess you guys are sure having lots of fun now. Trust me, I really want to be with you guys now. Hope you guys still remember to call me out next time.

I realise that I'm still a little girl. I can't drive, can't do anything. I depend on my parents. I can't go anywhere without them.

"You don't have transport to back! I've to work and your brother too. We can't fetch you back!" This is my dad's reason. And because of this, I'm here to write this apology. It's true, I don't have transport to back and I live too far, none of my friends can or willing to send me home.

This morning they force me and obviously I lost. The whole morning I just sat in front of the computer and watched drama. I kept on noticing the time.

9am-the meeting start.
11am-what are you guys discussing?is it about rc room or the camp?
1pm-the meeting should end.what are you guys eating?how is yuan's reaction?

Many books said that sagittarius need a lot of freedom. I've no freedom. I'm in a cage. A raged cage. They said people with high forehead will always hang out when young. The place that I always go is tuition's place.

I'm lazy to fight with my parents anymore. I'm tired to shout at them. I choose to have cold war. This would be easy for us. Some say "Yeah~SPM has finish!I can go crazy~!". I din't feel crazy at all since SPM had finished. It's even worse. Everyday at home. Either facing pc or television. Gosh.

Just wanna say sorry to my friends. The year end state camp, I can't go too. Maybe you guys can try to kidnap me then i can go. But for sure, my heart will be there.

Enjoy.

KHS on FIRE~!

2008-12-02T13:46:00.001+08:00

Gosh... Our school on fire???!!

Hope everything will be fine...

I'm 16 1/2

2008-12-02T11:13:00.002+08:00

Yeah~! Today is my lunar birthday. wahahaha Another 8 days I'll really be 17th~ This morning ate the "sou mian", like meehoon but it's sweet and two boiled eggs. It's tradition to eat the sweet sou mian bah. I've been eating that for 17 years~ But I remember I'm not quite like its taste when small. Can you imagine sweet meehoon? Woo~ I called it "special" now. lolx

Yesterday played majong with mom. wakakaak It's mini majong. The size is way smaller than the classic majong. Really so long din't play majong since form3 i think..

Guess what?! Today is the turn of my thumbs to be painful.. The reason is...... I kept on pressing my handphone playing the games~! hahahaha I've download 96 games!!! Gosh~ How on earth can I finish them all.. lolx

Accidentally watched Keroro on television.. Cute~! hahaha the way they talked and acted is really stupid and "innocent".. lolx

This 2 days seemed quite full for me.. hahahaha

Oya, this morning bro told me he found a part time job for me in OneTJ become a salegirl in a handphone shop. Should I go? Probably no.. haha

*Quite worry about my teeth... Almost one week already.. Still sour sour... OMG.........

Pain

2008-12-01T14:55:00.000+08:00

GOSH~~~! My 腰 is so painful.. Can't blame anyone. Just myself that day so stupid straight away do 50 sit-ups in one day after not doing it since spm.. ARRGH.. Stop for 2 days already.. Hope it recover soon ah.. AND.. Don't know what happen to my teeth pun.. PAINFUL too... not painful boh actually. It's like sour sour aneh.. EW.... What'd happened to me.. nah~

Stay HEALTHY,
Pauline.Yao

New Spectacles

2008-12-01T14:35:00.001+08:00

Tada~
New spectacles. Just took it yesterday.
nananana

High School's Memories

2008-11-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night I dreamt myself fooling around in school. After woke up, I told myself:"That could only be my memories from now."

7 of November 2008
It could be considered the last day of schooling in 5s4.
The five of us. *with mamiie behind yawning for sejarah*

Me and Ying.

Below are all me and the chok cot dear. lolx

*with lam behind.finding something??*

Five of us again with mama.

With huili. I look numb in this photo ==

Yayaya.. it's me and her again. haha

With hoongloong.

Special angle.

Weird ya..==

With lam in physics lab.

Lolx. I've no idea what am I thinking that time.

A series of us besides 5s4. lolx

Yeah~finally we took our magazine. Last magazine..

We're so impatient.. lolx

Have any idea what's above our name tag? hahaha karen and i know~Finally, it's dine~haha with fabian beside her. and i think that's the last time we discuss about khsrc with school uniform in 5s4. *the other peace is mine~*

I miss my high school's life. I miss 5s4 and all the classmates. I miss the moment when we're fooling around.
We will meet again for sure! During next year when we get our SPM's results.
Wish you all GOOD LUCK~!
LOVE.

"Di Tiao"

2008-11-28T15:34:00.000+08:00

emm.. a new blog.. just wanna keep it as simple as i can.. sorry friends, i din't link you guys up here.. haha.. and i wanna play "di tiao"'s style now.. wakaka means that i don't like here to be popular so i won't link my address at msn or friendster there lu~ just pretend that this is a private blog but actually it doesn't.. hahahaha

Yae~ It's new.

2008-11-28T14:09:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone! This is a new blog for me, although the address is remain the same. The old blog, which had accompanied me for about 1 year, had changed its address to ×ÞauLíNè×. Feel free to visit it if you wanna recall some memories. haha
So, this is a brand new start for me and of course a new way of managing this blog. Stay contact, stay tuned buddies~!